An exotic model and social media influencer who had previously vowed never to engage in sexual activity again has explained why she has chosen celibacy, claiming that “no man deserves” to have sex with her.
Neyleen Ashley, an erotic model with millions of Instagram followers and devoted content subscribers on OnlyFans, claims that she finds real-life sex to be boring because the men she meets aren’t looking for lasting relationships.
The 34-year-old, who has 2.5 million Instagram followers, claimed that her journey to celibacy is also a way for her to find inner peace as a recovering “sex addict.”
She apparently earns about $55,000 a month through OnlyFans, and despite having a ‘strong sex appetite,’ she vows to keep her word despite having it.
The model told Nude PR, “I decided to be celibate after my ex told me he didn’t want to be a father or a husband and he wasn’t living his truth.” After leaving his home, I was forced to look for a place to stay while still caring for my two children, ages 11 and 15, and going to work.
The breakup and the sorrow I experienced left me with such a negative impression of sex. My former feelings of elation and bliss from sex are no longer present.
The model claimed that a recent devastating loss in the family, which caused her ex to escape rather than offer support, made her pain worse.
She even had a gender reveal. “I was four months pregnant with a baby girl, but I lost the baby at month four,” she added.
Less than a month after the miscarriage, when I was still bleeding, my ex told me he no longer wanted to be with me.
She continues by saying that she is now concerned about who she is sharing her bed with due to the shock of her breakup.
I’m scared of individuals who only want to use me for sex and don’t care about who I am as a person or what’s in my heart, she added. I think that sexual activity transfers energies, and for the past few years, having sex has left me feeling empty.
Never happy, never loved… I felt ragged,’ I thought.
I spent a lot of time abusing sex. Because I was constantly masturbating at home and needed to have sex several times a day in order to function, I was unable to leave the house.
It had a cigarette-like sensation. I had to exhale or I wouldn’t be able to function without my fix.
That also came with the male attention I was attempting to attract, the sexting, the back-and-forth images, and the dopamine rushes I experienced when I was successful in pursuing them.
But it still left me hungry because I was loving other people more than I was loving myself.
I’m practicing self-healing, self-loving, and self-soothing, and I’m giving myself the energy I once devoted to others. “Now I only love myself—in every way.”
Neyleen claims she is still cultivating her dating life despite the fact that she is currently not having sex;
I have trouble dating since I usually inform anyone who shows even the slightest interest in me that I’m celibate, yet after hanging out, they always seem to want more.
They attempt to persuade me that my voyage of chastity will end with them, that I won’t be able to resist. However, I am a Leo, and if there is one thing about Leos, it is that we have strong opinions.
“People will receive kindness and understanding from me in return,” I said.
Because it’s what I’m used to, I sometimes feel like giving in, but the advantage is that I don’t have to feel like a burden to these men who don’t care about me.
“At this point, if I could remain celibate forever, I would.”
Who knows, though; this is a new journey for me, and I’m enjoying it more than I love having sex.
